We got married and I moved to my husband’s house.

I had eight children and the ninth child was in my stomach.

Suddenly my husband died my family members did not support me and my children were going to die of hunger and thirst. Bani will have to come to my mansion and stay with me until morning. I knew Imam Sahib’s intentions. I didn’t want to do all this, but when I looked at the children, my heart started to burst. Finally, I was to go to Imam Sahib at night. I went, but I lost my life when Imam.

My name is Samreen and My parents only had me as a daughter.

I was a child when my father passed away. When I was sixteen, my mother also died. But before she died, my mother married me. So, where will you go alone? This world will destroy you. I did not understand my mother’s words, but she used to say that I was doing all this for your good.In the chamber stood my fiancé; after our marriage, I went to my husband’s home. There was no one else in the world but my spouse. With him, my life began to go incredibly well. My hubby makes sure I never go without anything in the house.

I also wondered where he got so much money because he was a laborer. I became a mother a year after marriage and had 2 twins. After that, there was a line for children. He was a good man, he did a very small business but he brought home a lot of food and drink. There was no mother-in-law or anyone else.

I was very tired from work and was very worried.

sometimes I started crying badly and told my husband that I will not be able to handle all this, but my husband is a special kind of person. They used to make syrup in which syrup was added by adding almonds.

• I used to mix pistachios with something cool, which not only gave me a lot of relief, but I slept peacefully at night after a long day

otherwise my legs hurt so much that I couldn’t sleep because I had been carrying children all day. There was not a long interval between the births of the children, so they used to annoy me a lot. My husband would make syrup for me at night and when I would drink this syrup, I would not be conscious until the morning. When did I sleep and when did I wake up? My husband used to take care of her and used to say that you work all day and take care of them all,

now I will take care of them at night and let you sleep peacefully.

And the strange thing about my husband was that he was rarely at home. And I was very happy whenever he brought many things for me and my children. Had the best nights of my life. Allah blessed me with eight children. But when I looked at my husband, I did not think that he is the father of eight children. I did not look like a big woman but I was very weak inside giving birth was not an easy task.

My husband used to bring many good things to the house. He was also very good at feeding me taking care of the children all night and making me sleep. These two things were very good, but his salary was not so good, then I didn’t know where to get so much money. It was not even that one child’s clothes were worn by another. When a child was born, everything was made new for him. The villagers said that your husband gave you very good conditions.

They were taken but then the second news took my life that they were taking me to the doctor but my husband died on the way. At that time my husband’s ninth child was in my womb. I cried a lot, longing for my husband. How will I take care of my children? First of all, this thought came to my mind. My husband had kept some money at home which was used for his burial. Some distant relatives had come but no one was willing to take us home and no one supported us.

I wanted to give it if all the relatives gave us a little money for the month, then we could live, but no one was coming to this point.

No one should marry a mother of nine children, because in our society, when a woman is a widow like that, she is advised to marry another woman. So that you can find someone to take care of your children, but no one will be crazy to marry such a woman who had children and four daughters with her. I’ll look out for my kids and myself. You all can go. Your relative has left this world and the food cooked for his dead body has also finished. Now why are you sitting here watching me? All the people told me things and said that we were thinking of your benefit but you are not capable of doing good. I said, leave the house, there is no need to forget me. Everyone had gone.

There was some money in the house. At first, it was used.

After that, I started selling some household items, and now there was a cow, whose milk my children drank, but I could not feed the cow. Because there was no fodder, that’s why milk was not coming, I got fed up and sent cows and then spent a month on the same money, but after that, the children started starving again and were starving. To entertain them took them to the fields because now there was nothing to eat in the house. Near the fields, there was a tree with small mulberries on it. Lia, I knew this person, he was the imam of our village mosque and his wife was the daughter of a big zamindar, who had forbidden the wife of Imam Sahib.

When Imam Sahib saw this scene, he came to us to see the condition of the children. After knowing why, he got very worried and said, “Are you the wife of Azim, who died last few days?Then I informed him that everything had ended, the animals had all been removed from the house, he had sold it, and the kids were going hungry, so I had brought them here, he put the children in the car and told me to sit in the car and I will leave your house. When he came to leave the house, he put some money on my palm. I was very happy that Imam Sahib had done me a favor.

When I made tea for him he took my hand with the cup.

I put my hand back and said, Imam Sahib, what are you doing? How will you feed so many children, the money I have given will be exhausted after two days, then where will you go after that? No one dies of hunger in this world, and I will do something, maybe even send it home, then Imam Sahib said that the mad woman should not make the mistake of selling the house, otherwise, she will end up on the street. I have a job for you. If you give me some work in my house, I will take care of my children, my elder daughters, both of them were so big that if I was not at home, I could take care of the rest of the brothers. I said to Imam Sahib that yes, I will do whatever you ask me to do.

I was a little worried about why Imam Sahib was calling me at night

then he said to come after ten o’clock at night and not to come from the front door of the mansion but from the back door. Why was Imam Sahib calling me from the back door of the mansion at night? I knew that I was very tired of my wife and the whole village knew this, but now he wanted to take advantage of my poverty, he left and I was thinking the same. The money that was given by Imam Sahib was lost, it was deducted by the grocer in his previous account and he gave only so much food that we could cook for one time, he refused to give anything else and he said that my money came after four months now.

It was almost ten o’clock at night.and i not at all ready to lend again

I sitting and crying hugging the picture of my husband. I did not understand what to do. My husband had always fed me well and well I wore it, I never let anyone live a life of humiliation, but what could I do now, there was nothing to eat at home, I was educated and left so many children to go to work, so who would give me a job? I would have done it, but all the poor people lived here, except Imam Sahib, but he was not giving me the job of a maid. That I was coming to take care of everyone, I put on a black cloak and left the house, then I entered through the back door of the haveli built next to the mosque. But fifteen minutes passed, and no one came there.

I said that I didn’t want to do all this. I can’t be unfaithful to my dead husband, so I started to leave when someone held my hand and stopped me. When I looked back, it was Imam Sahib. She freed her hand from his hand and said I am going back. She said that if you go back, you will regret a lot. Think about your children. I said that you want to make me do wrong by telling me about my children.